When starting any new process of creativity, we can often stop ourselves from beginning. Our critique can be quick to say “hey buddy slow down, you have no time or place in this scene”. The other part of our internal commentary can also talk about the bodies of work we analyse in saying what pieces of work are worthless and what pieces of work are phenomenal. Who the hell wants to be in that body of work that isn’t phenomenal?
Our imposter syndrome is red hot in only wanting to invest time into something we’re incredible at doing. So when we’re starting out in a new field, it can be defeating to see how after we inject all our passion and love into something; that the results are sub-par.
Additionally, we’re very much mimicking the immediate and direct influences that have inspired us. As we within ourselves can pick out and instantly see our influences we feel like we’re a direct copy of our idols, which breeds further discouragement.
We often don’t pat ourselves on the back for doing what most merely avoid to do which is simply starting out. Even after all the projects I’ve worked on, the most intimidating part still to this day is starting a new one; simply because I don’t know where I’ll end up and what the results will be.
Before writing this article, I was driving around thinking about how I had no idea what I would want to write. I was also thinking about how rubbish my writing is, as it’s something I’ve only been attempting recently.
You have to start somewhere and focus on the act of doing, learning and crafting; which is how we become good at anything.
Don’t let the internal critique get the best of you. You need to push through the beginner phase until you slowly start finding your own identity and what things make you uniquely you. Don’t worry about how much you look like your direct influences. Keep going, keep creating and keep trying new things.
As time has gone on, I can directly say who my initial influences were and how much my initial work was directly copying them. Though as time has gone on my work has evolved where I’ve taken in other pieces and elements of things I love which further pushes my work and style. And to keep things interesting for myself, I feel it will always evolve with my expanding tastes/influences.
So don’t think about the destination, focus on the journey. Focus on the craft of what you do and the act of doing and before you realise it you’ll arrive at your destination.
Let’s all start by showing up and doing the simple act of doing and not letting this results-based mindset inhibit us from going on the journey we need to take to find ourselves.